It's 11:30 pm and I am still up! Sigh! I need to wash diapers and go to bed. Don't ask me why but I got the bright idea to do a websearch for my bio father tonight. Came up empty handed. Zero. Zilch. Nada.
But I did pay $7.95 for a report of 21 men who have the same name. So I am going to write a few. Who knows. I feel stupid doing this. REALLY stupid. I mean if he's alive it would be easy to find me.
The thing is we don't know if he's alive or dead. Not even his family knows and we've had some minor contact with them over the years. So if he were alive and hadn't contacted them why would he contact me?
I don't even know why I want to know. I just do. Even if he's alive and doesn't want anything to do with me - I think I just want to know if he's alive or dead. UGH! I feel like I should tattoo the world LOSER on my forehead.October 11, 2006 - 2006-10-11
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